I've gained a few pounds. I've lost some of my lung strength. I haven't been doing real cardio work in four or five months. I fell off the wagon.
I don't eat well. I don't pay as much attention to portion size as I should. I eat too much dessert when I eat it, and I nibble on mindless crap like tortilla chips.
The worst thing about falling off the wagon is that you suddenly forget you were on a wagon. Living healthy is challenging, but living sloppy is not. It's easy. You stop caring, and it's easy to keep not caring.
But I'm tired all the time, and I hate that.
I get winded too easily, and I hate that.
I could just sleep more. But I don't want to do that. I want to get myself back together.
I'm going to start chipping away on my health. A little bit at a time.
I have the equipment, I just don't use it. A situp bench. An elliptical machine. Dumbbells.
Every night, I can do a little something.
Ten minutes on the elliptical.
Every night, I can do something.
And it's going to get easier. Thirty sit-ups will become forty-five, and then sixty, and them maybe a hundred.
Ten minutes on the elliptical will become thirty.
I'm going to get myself back together. I hate looking like this right now. I'm going to change it.