Darren Wilson finds himself a free man tonight.
Michael Brown is still dead. Whatever happened tonight, that never would have changed. But justice could have taken a step forward tonight.
It didn't.
We knew that was going to happen. When they took three months to make a decision, we knew it was going to be a free pass for Wilson.
When the governor called a press conference three hours before the grand jury announcement to plead for calm, we all knew what was coming. He swore he didn't know what the decision was, but come on now, we're not stupid. Why plead for calm unless you think there might be a reason for people not to remain calm?
Ferguson has serious problems with fairness and equity. As does St. Louis. As does this country. Darren Wilson's indictment wouldn't have changed that. But it would have helped, dammit.
Indicting Wilson would have suggested that he didn't get the automatic benefit of the doubt that so many police officers receive. It would have shown America that this community wanted to see justice done.
But no. All of our suspicions were exactly right. Darren Wilson is free for killing Mike Brown. Not even a trial.
I'm tired of being disappointed by this country. But we need to channel this energy into changing the world. I'm pushing against despair. We need to fix this world, not be crushed by resignation.